A good goodbye to 2022

 HAPPY HOGMANAY HOCKEY

There have been a lot of aspects of 2022 to be unhappy about, from both a personal and wider point of view.  Some of the personal I've documented here previously.  More widely the greatest worry I see is the steady growth of the far right in our society, which appears to have been boosted on Twitter by the takeover of the idiot Musk.  

So it's good to end the year on a proper high note.  I've written before about the return of Edinburgh Capitals into our lives and the pleasure of going back to be hockey fans.  Since that first post on the subject the team has improved, the results have started to come, and we're up into the top half of the league, still with a couple of games in hand.  But it's the experience that counts, the lows and highs and tension and excitement and being part of something bigger for a few hours.  Back in the day the highlight of the season was always the Hogmanay game against local rivals Fife Flyers, when our ageing freezer of a building saw the biggest and noisiest crowd of the year.  Now, playing at a lower level of the sport, the local rivals still come from the same rink in Fife, but now it's the Kirkcaldy Kestrels we face.  

Caps v Kestrels, Hogmanay, and, once again, by far our biggest crowd of the year, probably close of even over four figures.  Lots of new people coming along, hopefully with many to return.  That possibility greatly helped by a thriller of a match.  Not many goals, but end to end stuff, great performances from both goalies, and a superb goal to settle the matter.  twice Caps came back from being a goal down, and it was two apiece at the end of regulation time.  And so we went into the nerve shredding period that is three on three sudden death overtime.  Cue our captain, Joel Gautschi, who tipped in a floated lob of shot from the new guy (first match today) Ryan McFarlane.  The poor keeper didn't stand a chance and suddenly there were lots of happy Caps fans.

If that isn't enough to win us some new supporters...

I'm pleased I also decided to give a first airing to my worst-taste old Caps shirt, the Xmas special of 2017.  And that it won't come out of the cupboard again until next Hogmanay.  Happy New Year folks!

The lion in the freezer

 BACK IN THE FRIDGE

When we first moved up (and in my case back) to Edinburgh the dominant element of our winter social life was in Murrayfield Ice Rink.  From September until March there would be few weekends when we wouldn't be in our regular seats, shouting on the Caps, and getting to know more and more people in the crowd.  But after March '18 there was no more Caps to go and support.  They lost their contract for the ice time at the rink, and were replaced by Murrayfield Racers.  We did try a couple of visits to see the latter, but it wasn't the same.  I knew too much about the way their management, and that of the rink, had gone about things and it neve sat well with me.  I couldn't become a Racers fan.

In 2020 the rink closed due to lockdown, and thereafter failed to reopen, due to a combination of technical and financial problems.  This summer brought the surprise move that not only would it be opening, but the new owners were involved with the Edinburgh Capitals, and they would be back on the ice for the 22/23 season.  Not at the same pro level they had been back in the old days, but in Scottish National League.  A lower, slower standard of hockey.  But still hockey.  And still our team.

For various reasons there were delays in getting the rink operating again.  The team had to travel to train and play only away matches.  But they were back, and starting to win some games.  We went up to Dundee to see one match and enjoyed what we saw.  But it's never the same as being at home.  Last night reminded us why.

We wondered what sort of crowd would turn up.  If there would be anything like the same enthusiasm and passion that the fans had always brought, even when they were watching defeat after defeat.  If the spectacle would be as engrossing, and emotionally involving, as it had been.  And if they really still were 'our' Caps.

There was, it was, and they were.  I don't know the numbers, but that was one of the biggest crowds I've ever seen at a hockey match in The Fridge of Dreams.  The crowd were behind the team, and there was still the same emotional connection.  It'll take me a few games to be able to immediately recognise all our players.  I can happily accept that the standard of play is lower than that which we'd once been used to, because there's still that sense of involvement in the game itself.  That feeling of being a part of something greater than yourself.  Belonging.

There have been a lot of improvements to the place itself, but mostly it remains the old barn we both laughed at and loved.  The same old rickety seating, the same dodgy PA system, and, very definitely, the same temperature that earned it the name Freezerfield.  And, for this game, same old Caps.  Looking like they were going to get hammered, suddenly generating a surge of hope, and ultimate disappointment.  From 0-5 down they got back to 3-5, and all seemed possible again.  Until the next goal.  It ended 4-6.  Against the league leaders, so we can't complain too much.  There will be wins coming soon...

Plug me in and make me young again

 SHOCKING

I realise it's a bit early for any kind of end-of-year review, but, even with a couple of months left to go, I think I'm safe in saying that I won't look back on 2022 as one of my favourite years.  There have been many good things about it, including the return of our much-missed Edinburgh Capitals to the ice, but even that's not much good if I'm too decrepit to enjoy it.

OK, 'decrepit' is maybe an exaggeration, but this has been the year when I started to feel properly old, and not just because the arrival of my state pension gives me formal OAP status.  The process of ageing has been something I've been more conscious of for about fifteen years, ever since I noticed that there were lots of people who walked more quickly than I did, something that almost never happened when I was younger.  My solo perambulations had always been brisk.   But I was rarely ill, other than the obligatory colds.  Even the arrival of gout in 2015 didn't really make me feel old, despite the olde worlde connotations of the ailment.  I changed some behaviours and went on as normal.

Now I'm somebody who has to remember to take their medication on time.  I know that's the case for many, many people, some from an early age, but it's still a bit of a shock when it's you having to do it.  You are no longer as you once were.  You're one of those people who can go on at boring length about your health conditions, should you choose to do so.  (I do hope I don't...)  First it was a bit of breathlessness.  That became a slightly misfiring heart, and the first of the pills.  A further scan revealed no more about that problem, but resulted in a conversation which included words like 'major surgery', 'stroke' and 'death'.  Tends to grab the attention a bit.  Not that any of that trio are imminent, just vague shadows on the edge of my consciousness.  And another daily pill to take.  

There was one more pill, a blood thinner that the medics were insistent I never missed a dose of.  Certainly not for the 28 days running up to last Friday.  Nor for the next 28.  Because on that day I might have received a small measure of rejuvenation, time will tell.  And my first time in a hospital bed for nigh on four decades (and even that was only due to a panicky GP).  Not for long though.  They had me into one of those hospital gowns - fortunately the tie up the front type rather than having my arse hanging out the back.  Then on to the bed, back at a jaunty 45 degree angle, and wheeled up to surgery.  Followed by what felt like a team comedy routine.  To my right the anaesthetist and his assistant, trying to get a needle into me and commenting on how my tan made my skin tougher to get through.  Had I been on my holidays?  (No.)  Over my left shoulder a face appeared, introduced herself, and proceeded to stick patches over my torso.  The surgeon stood on the left, her paperwork spread over my legs, asking me all the same questions she'd asked when she came to see me a couple of hours before.  And, beyond my feet (which overhung the short mattress by a good thirty plus centimetres) a silent young man stared, taking it all in.  

I can recall the papers being shuffled back into order, but not them being taken away. But they were gone when I next knew anything.  "It worked" said the surgeon.  Which was good news.  I asked how many goes they'd had.  Only one, which was another positive.  Could I see the ECG print?  Yup.  And what a difference from the same thing the day before at my pre-op checks.  A regular heart beat, bigger gaps between the spikes and a consistent wave pattern.  All from one electric shock.  I said thanks, and got the silent man to speak.  I hope he learned something from his observations.

Four days later and I'm not yet able to say how beneficial it's been.  Still easily tired, still aching a bit, but steadily getting stronger.  Back for further checks in a few weeks, to see if it's 'taken'.  Sometimes the heart rebels and goes back to it's poorly functioning state.  But maybe not, and I will breath a bit easier, be a bit quicker again.  There's a lot of criticism thrown at our NHS these days.  But I think they're bloody wonderful.  Even if they can't stop me getting older...

Walked the walk

 THAT'S THAT THEN

Another Kiltwalk completed.  Possibly my last.  Or possibly not.  It was an early start by my usual standards...

I walked with Darren, who I didn't know very well before.  We both know a lot more about each other after four hours plodding along.  

And that helped a lot.  Chatting away takes the mind of what the body is doing, or struggling to do, makes the time go quicker, and he even put up with me saying how much I was looking forward to a hot bath for most of the last half of the walk...  We didn't really have a stop, other than when forced to at road crossings, and when we picked up a banana.  He could, I suspect, have gone quicker without me, but he never hinted as much.  Good lad - treating old people with respect!

The route was a bit different from past Kiltwalks, and surprised me a couple of times.  Which was also a bonus, as I was busy taking in my surroundings rather than the aches developing in tired muscles.  I did try to take a few photos along the way.  But was so determined to keep walking that most of them were truly rubbish, so here's the best of a bad bunch.  The final pic is really awful, I know, but shows the time we were about to cross the finish line.

So  that's it done.  Many, many thanks to those who donated.  And if you'd like to join them, here's the link.  It's available for another few days.

The day before the day

 

AND THEN THERE WERE TWO...

Tomorrow I don tartan and walking boots, and head off on a bit of a trek round North Edinburgh.  Kiltwalk day has finally arrived.  I am as well prepared for it as I'm going to be, and ready to punish my body in the name of Advocard.  Not without a couple of surprises though.

I had, foolishly, assumed the route would be the same as the one in 2019.  Only in the past week did I realise that we'll be starting, as well as finishing, at BT Murrayfield, and won't be going to Musselburgh at all.  The upside of this news being that the distance is only thirteen and a bit miles now - easy, eh?

The second surprise arrived this morning.  For the first time I was due to be walking as part of a team, with a couple of the guys from the office also doing the distance.  Only to hear that one of them has managed to fall down the stairs and one ankle is considerably bigger than the other.  So now I'm walking with the youngster (well, thirty something...) so I might end up walking on my own again.  I don't want to hold him back.  

But there's always the wee hot meal to look forward to...

News of the outcome to follow tomorrow.  

Meanwhile... if you're tempted to sponsor me to help raise funds for Advocard...  Here's the link.  Every penny is welcome folks.

This shit just got real

 

NO FRAUD THIS TIME

At the end of this post I will be asking you to sponsor me.  Again.  It's for a good cause - honest.  I've written about the work of Advocard in previous posts, so I won't bore anyone with that again, but they provide an increasingly essential service in Edinburgh.

Despite which, in the previous three years when I've done the Kiltwalk, I've always felt a bit guilty about asking for money for what I was doing.  We see enough people asking for support for doing things that are effectively their hobbies, and I have always done a fair bit of walking.  Maybe not the fourteen and half miles required here, but if walking to my destination seems a feasible option then that's the one I'd go for.  Walking that bit further required a bit of effort on my part, but I enjoyed it, both for the challenge it provided and the actual walking itself.  So my guilt was really because I felt a bit of a fraud.  The 'challenge' wasn't really great enough to stop me feeling a bit of a fraud.

Yesterday I did the full Kiltwalk course for the first time in 2022.  And I I won't feel like a fraud this year.  It will probably be the last time I attempt this distance, because my recent health problems have turned it into a genuine challenge, and I admit I struggled.  Had to sit down a couple of times.  Had to stop and do some stretches.   Had to convince myself to keep going whenever I passed a tempting bus stop.  Even that first glimpse of the endpoint, BT Murrayfield, didn't gee me on like it once did.  I got there, but the fun of past years is just a memory.

All of which is a long winded way of saying that if you ever thought about sponsoring my efforts before then this could be the last chance.  I realise it's hardly ideal to be saying this at a time when UKGov is ensuring that so many people are wondering if they can have food or heat this winter, but a lot of those people are the ones Advocard provides advocacy help for.  So anything you could spare would be much appreciated and going somewhere it will be of use to others.

Please click on this sentence to find my donations page. 

Still trying...

 

AS DEBBIE HARRY ONCE SAID...

You know the old joke about hospitals - you go in with one thing and come out with something worse?  Turns out the best jokes are based in truth.

In 2018 and 2019 I did the Kiltwalk charity walk, of around fourteen to fifteen miles, to raise funds for Advocard.  In 2020 there was no mass walk, but I did my own virtual Kiltwalk, down the Water of Leith Walkway, for the same charity.  The 2021 walk only took place in Glasgow, so I skipped last year, but was quick to sign up again for 2022.  Maybe too quick.

I've already posted a couple of times about my efforts so far, here and here.  In previous years there would usually have been about half a dozen posts, all pleading for your money.  My relative reticence is, as the previous posts suggested, a reflection of my own doubts, and lack of faith in these steadily declining physical abilities.  I've mentioned the breathing problems, which continue to make it hard work up even gradual inclines, and the minor heart problem.  This week has brought new revelations.  Some more heart tests on Wednesday unveiled another problem, potentially more serious.  Fortunately walking, and the aerobic exercise it provides, is beneficial in holding this at bay, so that's a relief.

But another walk today also reminded me how slow I will be.  I still haven't done the full fourteen and a half miles - twelve and a half is my longest so far, so there remains a nagging doubt about my ability to complete the distance.  Today's efforts suggest that rather than the three and a half hours I'd hoped to be aiming for, I might struggle to make four and a half.  Oh well...

In the past I've always done these walks solo.  This year, on the day, there will be three or four of us.  All considerably younger than me so I have no intention of trying to compete!  They might even walk with me for a bit until they find themselves bored with crawling speed.  

So here I am again, looking for sponsorship along with the motivation that provides.  And come the eighteenth of September I will make it to the finish line in BT Murrayfield - one way or another.

You can go to my donations page from this link.  

Time is just a concept...

 

TORTOISE 1, HARE 0

A month ago I wrote (here) about my struggles to get up to speed for the Kiltwalk in September.  Time for another update.  And another plea for people to donate a bit for the worthy cause I'll be walking for.

I've done another four walks since then, and keep learning about what my body can do now (hint : a lot less than it used to...).  The first three were shortish, well under ten miles each.  But last weekend I headed out to Balerno, and The Water of Leith Walkway.  

That was the route I used for my 'virtual' Kiltwalk in 2020, which was also the last time I walked the whole of that route.  It's slightly shorter and easier now, for the work that was taking place around the Dean Village has been completed and that avoids the trek up and down the hill which was previously required.  Near enough twelve and a half miles if you do the full distance.

I did.  But slowly.  Very slowly.  On previous Kiltwalks I've always walked non-stop.  No loo breaks.  No halts to have some water, just sling the bag off, slug from the bottle, and bag back on, with only a little drop in pace.  Even at the provided pit stops I'd be shouting "Banana please" about 15 paces before I got to where volunteers were distributing goodies, so there'd be one held out for me as I passed by!  

Not any more.  If I hadn't had a few stops (I can't now remember if it was 3 or 4) I'm not sure I'd have made it to the end.  Most were no more than a minute, a quick sit down to reset the limbs, and off again.  Except the last one.  By then my route was passing close to home, my back was aching, and I was soooo tempted to pack up and go back to comfy chair and a hot bath.  So tempted.  But around 3 minutes on a park bench changed my mind.  Aches diminished, spirit restored.  I walked on to the end.

Which meant I did the distance in around 3 hours 48.  In 2020, on the slightly longer route, it was 3 hours 17.  Oh well.  This is who I am now.  And accepting that, and forgetting about who I was three years ago, is going to be the key to doing the walk.  That and trying to age semi-gracefully....

In 2019 I promised myself that in 2020 I'd try to break 3 and a half hours.  I never got the chance to find out if I could, and now it's gone.  It would be good to at least beat the 4 hour mark.  Or maybe not.  It no longer matters.  Last weekend at least proved to me I will still be able do the distance, as long as I'm 'sensible'.  (Yuk!)

But it's only worthwhile if I raise some money for Advocard, where I'm still a volunteer and providing advocacy for people who have difficulties being listened to.  So if you've read this far... maybe you'd be ready to head over to my donations page and press the big blue 'GIVE NOW' button?  

I did enjoy the walk.  Being back on the Walkway made me realise that I've missed it, with so many lovely views along the way, and the impressive murals in Colinton Tunnel.  If you're in Edinburgh and haven't been I recommend it.  

Walk smarter, not quicker

 DON'T ASK HOW LONG IT'LL TAKE, JUST IF...?

Two days ago I became a proper OAP.  Yesterday I walked more than ten miles.  Today I ache.  Spot the obvious connections.

Once again I have signed up to do the Kiltwalk charity event in September.  My first, in 2018, my sole aim was to get to the end.  For the next I wanted to be quicker, and did the fourteen and a bit miles in three hours thirty three minutes.  Frustratingly close to three and a half hours, so that was to be my aim in 2020, if the same course was in use.  But we know what happened next.  And again in '21.  So here I am, trying again.  The route has yet to be announced, but I know one thing.  I won't be doing it in three and a half hours.

Three years older, complete with the subtle physical modifications that gradual decrepitude  brings.  A clear thickening around the middle.  Two bouts of the oh-so-fashionable covid virus, leaving me with (my GP suggests) a few breathing problems from long covid.  I have finally entered the world of daily meds, for a mild heart condition.  And the dodgy left knee gets ever dodgier.  Intimations of mortality

But the optimistic part of my brain still goes "you've done it before, you can do it again".  While the inner realist reflect on all those changes, and wonders...

I haven't tried on the kilt for a long time. Will it still fit, comfortably enough to wear for so many hours?  I can always get another kilt though. I can't get another body, so I'll have to make the best of the one I've got.

I've now put nine walks behind me, from less than five miles, up to yesterday's first effort at passing the ten mark.  I've learned that I have to pace myself - as the one attempt to push on at something like my old speed resulted in me feeling like shit for all of the day after!  Yesterday's ten and a bit felt comfortable enough.  But took over three hours.  A pace that would take me over the four hour mark on the day.  

It's not as if it matters.  If anyone is going to sponsor me I'm sure they'll not make it conditional on my pushing myself to the point of exhaustion, or covering the distance in a certain time.  The most important thing is to collect some money for Advocard, my chosen charity once more.  And this year, for the first time, I won't be alone in my kilted effort, with at least one other and possibly more joining in.  But there's still this stupid pride thing that us humans do.  And knowing that the one thing about getting old is not actually wanting to feel like you're getting old.  I just wish that optimistic wee voice I mentioned within would learn to shut up.

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Who are we?

 

WHO?  WHAT?  

In the Olympics we parade in the opening ceremony as United Kingdom, but compete as Team GB.  In most international sports we play as four separate countries.  One of those four is sometimes on it's own, so Northern Irelnd compete as such in football, and sometimes as part of the national team of a neighbouring state, with ireland playing as a complete nation, including the occupied territory.   That same sport also sees us compete as part of a British Isles Team, while in golf we can play as part of Europe.  Meanwhile the stories about the English media describing Andy Murray as Britsh when he's won, and Scottish when he's lost, are not entirely apocryphal. 

If a UK newsreader mentions "the largest city in the North East" we all know that they mean Newcastle.  A Scottish newsreader is referring to Aberdeen.  In one of the four countries the culture is for people to unconsciously use the words England/English and Britain/British as synonyms.  But never in the others, where there is no confusion, unconscious or otherwise.  When I go outside the UK people often ask if I'm English, but immediately know the difference when I say Scottish.  I hardly ever recall ever being asked if I was British.  

The UK is a unitary state in constitutional terms, but disunited in the real world.  It has an ongoing identity crisis, a deep confusion about what it is and who we are.  And this isn't a recent development.

I started going to Murrayfield to watch Scotland play in the late 60s.  When it was England's turn to come here they were always accompanied by tubby, oldish man (well oldish to me at the time) in a 'John Bull' outfit, complete with union flag waistcoat.  Even at twelve years old I knew that was simply wrong.  He couldn't be supporting what that flag represented, because that wasn't who was playing.  So why was he so confused?

I lived for thirty five years in England.  How many times was I told about how well/badly England were doing in the Olympics?  Or Britain in the football World Cup?  More than you might think, or than even the people saying it might think, for they were completely unaware of the implications of what they were saying.  Even when it was pointed out to them, some still couldn't grasp the difference (including my first wife, which might be one of the reasons why she's not my wife any more...).   

UK has a deeply confused identity.  Life would be a lot simpler if we put it out of it's misery, and let everyone be who they really are.  End the union.

Something old, something new, something tasty, something bluesy

 

TAPAS AND JOHN PEEL

D'ye ken John Peel?  Or, more appropriately, d'ye mind o' John Peel?  Not the legendary Cumberland huntsman, but the far more influential Liverpudlian DJ and broadcaster who sadly died in 2004.  Influential?  Well he certainly was in my life, and that impact he made reverberated again yesterday, providing an unexpected experience.

In my late teens and early twenties I was a frequent listener to Peel's late night music programme.  Often I'd end the day in bed, my tiny orange transistor radio, and the single earpiece plugged in.  Lying there in the dark I'd hear an eclectic mix of genres and instruments and styles, some immediately rejected, some diving into my consciousness.  If the latter remained an LP purchase would invariably result.  And my entry into the weird world of 'unusual' acts like Ivor Cutler and Wild Man Fischer.  And one of those LPs was Paco, by flamenco guitarist Paco de Lucia.  

Yesterday we had a walk along Portobello Prom, and decided that before going home we'd have a late lunch/early dinner.  The first promising place we came to was a Spanish tapas restaurant, so in we went.  First impressions weren't great.  The waiter waved us vaguely in as he was on the phone.  Lighting was a bit on the dim side considering it was only late afternoon.  And there was a noisy group of young women and their kids at a table.

But the waiter came over and couldn't have been lovelier.  The sun came out from behind a cloud and brightened the place up.  And the loud presences left the building, leaving us as the only two customers.  Which also meant I could hear the music coming over the speakers, and my ears sharpened up immediately.  The unmistakeable sound of flamenco guitar, all cascading ripples of notes percussive rhythms and bright, jumping energy.  In this case with a melody and style I recognised instantly.  Paco.  I hadn't played that LP for years.  I wondered if I still had it, for in downsizing I did get rid of a lot of my old vinyl.  But it was always a favourite, surely it's one I would have hung on to?

The track came to an end, to be succeeded by voices, which I couldn't make out.   Was this a radio station they had on and the immediately identifiable track was a coincidence?  No, this was their Spotify playlist, and what I'd heard was one of the ads.  Yes, it was Paco de Lucia (except he pronounced it correctly!).  Yes he was an icon of Spanish music.  It was clear that the waiter was delighted to find someone who knew of the man, and he talked knowledgeably about the musician's background and relatively recent death.  And asked if I'd like some suggestions for similar artists.

Would I?  Of course I would.  As we ate our (delicious) tapas he found time to scribble down a list, which was duly delivered.  Then we mentioned a Galician folkrock band we're fans of.  Which prompted another addition to the list.  And, in exchange, he took a photo of the name of our favourite band, which was on my tee shirt, and said he'd be investigating them.

I hope he does.  For I'm enjoying his little list, courtesy of YouTube and Spotify, and sooo pleased to find that Paco still sitting on my vinyl shelf and being able to listen to him today.  The years slipped away...

Without John Peel we'd have come away feeling we'd discovered an interesting place to eat.  With John Peel, or at least with listening to him more than four decades ago, we've added the even better discovery of new music to explore.  Or was that down to a butterfly in South America?

There's no idiot quite like a far right idiot

 It was said, back in 2014, that supporters of Scottish Independence were acting as Putin's useful idiots.  That his aim was to do anything he could to destabilise the two most significant opponents he faced in Europe - The EU and NATO.  Breaking up the UK would be a step along the road to damaging both.  And the subsequent move of Alex Salmond to appear on the Russian propaganda TV channel suggests there may well have been links - although also having the arch unionist Galloway on there suggests Putin will take advantage of any disruptive influences he can find. 

In 2014 Putin's aims, if such they were, failed. But in 2016 he struck gold. His main weapon of choice in undermining western democracy is the political far right (so Indy may be seen as an aberration). The full extent of Russian interference may never be known, but Putin must have been delighted to see a fellow anti-democratic narcissist enter the White House, and for one of the larger states of Europe to try and destabilise the EU with a messy divorce.

Fortunately his success in the US was short lived - can you imagine having a Putin admirer running the US right now? Biden is far from being the perfect president, but he is so, so much better an option than Trump. But the UK has compounded it's gift to Putin by electing a hard right government of incompetents, who have become a laughing stock internationally. Yes, we have a Foreign Secretary who gets confused between the Black Sea and the Baltic (can you imagine the feeding frenzy of the UK's right wing media had Dianne Abbott or Nicola Sturgeon said something similarly stupid?), and a PM knee deep in Russian corruption and money laundering.

Putin will continue to use whatever means to further his destabilisation aims. He has made little headway in Europe's big hitter, Germany, but the French presidential election was a big test of resistance. Quite how a country that suffered so much under fascist occupation can now opt to vote in such large numbers for one of Hitler's successors is beyond me, but Le Pen was far too close to taking control of one of Europe's big hitters.  Macron, as in the US, is far from perfect but he's still better than the fascist option.

There are stories emerging that Putin may have overplayed his hand domestically in invading his democratic neighbour, and it might yet end badly for him. Should he go the subsequent power vacuum will be messy, but maybe a friendlier Russia will come out the other side. Until he is gone there will be Russian agencies trying to influence Western politics to their own ends. In 2014 that may have included breaking up the UK. In 2022 that would be pointless. Putin has had his success and the UK has neutered itself, becoming something of a joke state. The far right might not have come directly to power, but their continuing influence on tory policy, and the vile attitudes of many of their MPs, ensures the UK is globally irrelevant.

All of which leave Scottish Independence as a more attractive, and necessary, option than ever. Putin's useful idiots are the fanatical brexshiteers, howling at the EU moon. If they don't care about the possibility of reigniting war in Ireland they're not going to care much about some Eastern Europeans, are they? The break up of the UK could now be seen as a positive anti-Putin action, helping the further decline of a state where the government has embroiled itself in Russian money. Bring it on.

Throwing rocks isn't helpful

 

FIND SOMETHING BETTER TO DO WITH YOUR ROCKS

Someone has put up an edifice you don't like.  Although it's intended to help others, you feel threatened by it.  In your head all you can see are scenarios in which the edifice impacts your life, in a bad way, and you don't like that.

You have a pile of rocks.  Could your rocks help resolve your fears?  You have two choices.

You can throw the rocks at the edifice, and try to knock it down.

Or you can try to find out why someone thought the edifice was important enough to build, then use your rocks to help improve it, or to build a newer, better edifice, that gives the help needed and doesn't scare you.

When the voting franchise was extended to men without property, there were people throwing rocks.

When it was extended further to include women, there were people throwing rocks.

When homosexuality was legalised, there were people throwing rocks.

When equal pay for women was established, there were people throwing rocks.

When same sex civil partnerships came in, there were people throwing rocks.

The people throwing rocks weren't always the same people, but they were always people whose position in our social structures had been normalised, and felt that position to be threatened by giving rights to people who didn't have them.

I've very consciously kept my distance from the debates going on around the Gender Recognition Act.  It's far too complex and nuanced a subject for social media.  But I do see plenty of others who feel less restrained.  And an awful lot of them are throwing rocks.  Couldn't they find a better use for them?

It's Not Over Yet

 YOU'RE NOT GOING ANYWHERE

When you've been with someone a long time it gets harder to buy presents that surprise them, or meet a need.  So for Xmas 2019 we decided we both had plenty 'stuff', so instead of even more 'stuff' we'd buy a joint present that didn't add to the clutter of an already cluttered home.  Since we both like going to gigs we decided that tickets would be the best answer, but in a new venue, away from home.

That ended with a trip to Dublin in January 2020, to see the great Christy Moore perform at Vicar St.  Great gig, great experience, and we decided that this was the future of the Crawford Xmas.  How wrong we were.  Ten weeks later the first lockdown came and a gig in Edinburgh on the eleventh of March would prove to be our last of the year.  Xmas 2020 came and it was back to the 'stuff' again, because where could you book with any degree of certainty?

But it looked like being better this time around so, cautiously, we booked to go somewhere not too far away this time.  Tonight is the night for our Xmas gig in Newcastle.  Wasn't it?  Because this just happened...

That's me on the left.  Sadly Barbara came up positive, and trying again produced the same result.  So no trip for us today.  And I'm wondering how much live entertainment we will end up getting to see this year, because the record hasn't been good so far.  

My first outing of the year should have been to Murrayfield on the second of January to see Edinburgh take on Glasgow, with another match, this time against Cardiff, on the eighth.  Both of which fell within the period of the mini-lockdown we had at the turn of the year, meaning sports events were played behind closed doors.  (For once covid provided a silver lining when there was an outbreak in the Glasgow squad and the match has had to be postponed, so maybe I'll get to see that one.)  I did get to the next match, against Brive, on the twenty first.  So that's one.

We had booked five gigs through in Glasgow during the Celtic Connections festival.  One vanished quite early on, US musicians deciding not to come across.  Then another went, for 'covid-related' reasons.  Then another.  In the end we got to see two, moved to larger, socially distanced rooms, but at least they went ahead.  And reminded us how much we miss live music.

There are at least five more rugby matches to go to this season.  And the calendar shows a further five gigs.  Three of them have been rearranged from previous cancellations - one of them five times already.  All bar one are local events.  The first is two weeks from tomorrow.  Maybe.  Who knows what comes next? 

On the plus side, staying at home means more time with this ageing lady, who's not been too well recently.  Which might be a subject for a future post.

What quality is most essential to be a decent human being?

 HAVE YOU GO IT?

As a society we are becoming more polarised in our views.  This has become increasingly true over the past forty or so years, and is now reaching worrying levels.  The old 

left vs right has spread into pro and anti EU, pro and anti Indy, pro and anti abortion, pro and anti vaccines, etc etc.  Whilst the dividing lines are blurred, it seems true that many of those in 'anti' categories will fall into the whole group of them.  Then there's criticism of the media, with the left seeing the BBC as a tory government mouthpiece, and the right saying that is too much influenced by progressive causes.  Here in Scotland Indy supporters feel the media is against them, but then so do the unionists!

Increasingly I find there's one word that seems to determine if people fall to one side of the arguments, or the other.  That word is empathy.  And nothing demonstrated that divide quite like one of the most important public demonstrations of last year, the Kenmure Street Protest in May.  

If you're unfamiliar with the incident, and haven't got time to follow the link, it happened when a Home Office immigration van tried to remove two Sikh men from their home in Glasgow because of alleged immigration offences.  The men were long standing members of the local community, and those neighbours rallied round in numbers, and alerted activist organisations, so that the immigration officers found their van locked in place by a huge, and ever growing, crowd of people determined not to let these men be taken away.  The police were called, and eventually they advised the release of the men.  The van went without them.

Reactions were split, each side vehement that they had right on their side.  The SNP, Labour and Greens all commended the humanitarian response of the locals.  The tories condemned the action for breaking the law.  But if it's bad law, and badly implemented too, who's to say what's right?

Ultimately your personal response to these events came down to the word I used above.  Empathetic people were able to place themselves in the position of these poor men, being dragged away from everything they new, without warning, early in the morning.  Others saw it in more black and white terms, without considering any of the human aspects.  

Which side were you on?  Do you have empathy or not?  I'm very much on the side of the protestors.